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This time last year I was hammered. Getting drunk on the phone with my best friend who happened to be 12 hours away. My sister’s left over XXX was the only thing to drink, so I did. It was nasty, but it got the job done. I woke up the next day, my technically birthday, at 5pm. Got out of bed and snorted some pills. Everything has changed. It seems like life is always harder when you’re...

Dec 7th

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I am doing this little project thing. Going a year without being in any sort of romantic relationship. No sex, no dating. Nothing. This is my blog about it. Follow?

Dec 6th

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Dec 6th

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I am convinced that life is just one big joke, nothing I say or do matters. In the end I will have changed no one’s life. The choices I make do not have anything to do with the grand scheme of things. I am a small person in a small town on a speck of earth. What is the point in all of this?

Nov 27th

it started with a three. the third day of the third month in the third class of the day. It was only right for it to end with a three. 3:33 pm.

Nov 25th

things to do tonight: hot shower herbal tea warm fire good book lots of blankets sleep

Nov 25th

I would like to say first of all that I had a very interesting conversation with my father today. As we we’re cleaning out the refrigerator he somehow ended up saying ‘I’m just waiting for you to come out’. This whole conversation would have been fine had it not lead to him telling me that if I we’re a homosexual that he would hold me in the same group as socialist...

Nov 20th

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I thought of you a lot last night. I don’t know if it was the combination of finding my little reminders on twitter and being in my mom’s neighborhood when it was so late, but I did. You don’t hurt me so much anymore now, it’s like a scar…you know it’s there but most of the time you don’t think about it, but when you do you can feel an echo of the sting of...

Nov 20th

Nov 16th

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Nov 16th

I haven’t been getting on much at all here lately, I go through fazes like this I guess where I would rather live my life through my eyes than a computer screen. All is well just so you know.

Nov 16th

Nov 3rd

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Nov 3rd

I wish I knew the words to say to make everything all better like it was. I wish that you could at least give me the chance to show you how much things have changed. I’m working so hard, and yeah I’m not there yet….but I’m motivated for the first time in my whole life. Motivated because you mean the most to me out of anyone still. Time is going to pass and I know that, but...

Oct 31st

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Oct 31st

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torunawayfromtheworld: evocation: -dannx:meerkatgirl:luckiese7en: I’m SKINNY, so I MUST be anorexic. I’m (apparently) EMO, so I MUST cut my wrists. I’m BLACK so I MUST carry a gun. I’m BLONDE, so I MUST be a ditz I’m JAMAICAN so I MUST smoke weed. I’m HAITIAN so I MUST eat cat. I’m ASIAN, so I MUST be sexy. I’m JEWISH, so I MUST be greedy. I’m GAY, so I MUST have AIDS. I’m a LESBIAN, so I...

Oct 31st